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Posted 11 months ago
Thu Jul 5 2012 14:08:35
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This is going to be a jumbled mess, I promise. I just wrote out alot of it and my stupid computer froze. I am bawling my eyes out right now. I can't stop crying. I am a wreck. I have been having these dreams where I just resort to suicide because of this mess, and I am thinking about it daily too. *No, seeing a dr. is not possible for me right now. For ANY reason. Let's not talk about that.

I live in a DUPLEX, 3 bedrooms, 4 stories. I live with my mom, siblings and young son. I share the attic room with my 2 sisters and my son. We are poor. BEYOND poor. We haven't payed rent in months or we are months behind. I have a good feeling these stupid BB's came from my stupid ass neighbor. It started in the middle of May. I had some bites. My mom swore she saw a flea, and then a few days later I did too. So for the first month we were sure this was FLEAS. My mom finally afforded a flea carpet powder stuff in mid-June and we used it. Same time as this my sisters left to visit their dad for the summer. Apparently this made the BB angry and more visible? I was bringing DS to bed for a nap and noticed there was two, pretty much dead, laying where I sleep. I fkin FREAKED out. I captured them to identify them and I put DS to bed across the room in his aunts bed. That night I slept there too and I got ATTACKED soooooooooooooo bad. Found out these things are bed bugs. This was mid-June. I found a baby one that day. It was kind of spaced out when I saw them but I vacuumed alot, changed my bed sheets alot, got rid of all extra blankets, pillows, sheets on both beds that were not needed. I checked all beds and saw nothing. No one else in house is being bitten or showing signs, except me and my son and my sister had a few before leaving.

Wow... This is where I am going to get emotional and crazy and potty mouthed. I don't know what to do. I am a young single mom. I have no money. My mom has no money. My mom just BARELY even cares about this problem. If it's not affecting her personally she does not understand. I suffer from a slew of mental disabilities, this is pushing me over the limit. PAST THE LIMIT. To add to it, my son seems to have something behaviorally wrong with him. We can barely be together anymore without losing our minds. I want so bad to leave for just a couple days to BREATHE and clear my mind of my pain and hurt. I cannot now because these bugs!!! So everything at once is killing me.

We cannot afford an exterminator. It will NEVER happen. Mom told landlord about bugs last week and he brought over Bed bug hot shot fogger. I read not to use. I told her and she was angry. Said 'everything has pros and cons' blah blah. But I convinced her not to. I know our landlord gave our neighbor some too. she WILL do them probably. Maybe already has I don't know.

Meanwhile I read online about this diamoatoes earth stuff... I read it works great. I beg my mom for it, beg beg beg beg.. she just called me up and said she was getting it and said it cost her 17 dollars.

To us 17 dollars a freaking fortjune. I know she took it out of the small ampount she had saved for my little sisters birthday. I know cos we haven't had money except that.

AND NOW WHAT?? I JUST READ HERE SO MUCH ABD BOUT IT. IT'S HARD TO USE, ETC. ETC. WHAT THE FKKKKKKK!!!! I CANT TELL MY MOM SHE WILL KILL ME. ITS ALL WE HAVE NOW.

its all we have and i cant stp crying at all right now i am. i dont want to do this anymore i dont want to deal with these bugs. no one knows but we went two years with head lice... TWO YEARS!!! TWO!!! still going through it . cos no one can afford to do things right and no one cares much anymore except me. if we cant get rid f simple lice how will we do THIS???????

i want to die. seriously.... the past cpuople night i been sleeping on the couch and ds was with my mom cos he hasnt been sleeping good not due to bugs. Bad I know cos they will startmoving. I put DS to be dthere last night and holy hell... HOLY I went in for bed a couple hrs later and found EIGHT 8 LIVE UGS AROUND HIM!!!!! As a mother hw can I feel???? I tok hjim downstairs immediately. my poor little man.

I am not functioning. I need jelp no one can give. why us???? WHY US???????? WHYYYYYY??? This is affecting more than anyone knows. my matteress is just a matters on floor. no frame no box spring. i duct taped the seam of wall all down my bed. i know they r in there because the duct tape lifted in few places and i saw them trying to get out. i pulled my bed away from wall.
thats all i can do. i have the DE now to.... please help me. what can i do from here. .....
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Posted 11 months ago
Thu Jul 5 2012 14:27:56
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I am sorry this is so long. I tried to talk to my mom group online, they don't sympathize and tell me I am just freaking out over nothing. It does NOT feel like nothing. I am an emotional and uncontrollable wreck. I have a piece of duct tape with all those bugs I caught from my mom last night on it. Should I show pictures?

I have checked my mattress out too but they hide good because I see nothing? My mattress is SOOOO old though, and was used when I got it this was like 2-3 years ago though. I can't tell what has been on it and what is new, what is BB and what is not.

It's been a month and half with these, how bad is our problem likely? I think they are in my couch on 1st floor too. I get eaten bitee sitting here though I have NEVER seen a bug on the couch. I don't know what else to add...

At first I didn't think our problem was too bad since I don't ssee them crawling in my mattress seams or anything but those 8 at one time near my baby have scared me for life. NOW I believe it's a huge problem. I cna't help but wonder how many were there but had left!!
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Posted 11 months ago
Thu Jul 5 2012 16:50:14
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While you tell a very tragic story, I don't know what kind of help you expect to get here. Unfortunately, if you haven't paid your rent in months, I doubt your landlord will be very sympathetic. And without the funds to take care of this yourself, you don't have many options. I'd suggest asking your church for help. I'm not religious myself, but I know that they are good people and will help when they can. Best of luck.
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Thu Jul 5 2012 17:21:23
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critterbug - 27 minutes ago »
While you tell a very tragic story, I don't know what kind of help you expect to get here. Unfortunately, if you haven't paid your rent in months, I doubt your landlord will be very sympathetic. And without the funds to take care of this yourself, you don't have many options. I'd suggest asking your church for help. I'm not religious myself, but I know that they are good people and will help when they can. Best of luck.

I am not looking for that kind of help. I need more details about using DE the BEST way possible. Either I tell my mom to return it and just say fucking my stupid god damned life to hell or I find some way to use a combination of VACCUMMING AND DE and maybe some rubbing alcohol to rid us of our problem.

Can someone at least tell me I have a chance? That it's possible? WHAT can I do?? What can I do with a mattress that lays ont he floor. there is no way i can get a cover for it now. Is it safe to use DE with a toddler around? I need hints tips tricks and more. I need as much help as I can get.
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Thu Jul 5 2012 17:45:49
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I am a newbie here, and have many questions myself but being a nurse..I have this instinct to try to help people.

From what I know about the DE..food grade is okay to use but you cannot breath it in, or allow your child to breath it in. Basically you will have to keep him from contact with it because if he plays with it, particles can get in the air and in his respiratory tract. You may be able to slow down the bugs, but unless action is taken in the entire building...I don't think they are going away. First vacuum everything--in all parts of the house, including drawers, the bottom side of furniture your mattresses, rugs, carpets. Use a wand to get into all the cracks and crevices. bag and seal the vacuum bag and throw it out away from the house. Wash every item of clothing in hot water and dry in a hot dryer. What you don't wear anymore bag up sealing the bags tightly and throw in the garbage. Any other items you want to keep and can't wash in hot water (toys etc) bag up tightly and leave for 18 months. Use a hair dryer tediously--attentively or a hot iron on your mattresses, getting in all the cracks. Put the DE under your mattresses/beds and all around it if you can be sure your child can't get to it. If anyone has a bed or crib, make interceptors out of margarine dishes or old plastic containers and place under the legs. You can also do this on tables, dressers etc. Then place a line of DE around the outside edges. put the DE in cracks, in back of drawers, under furniture and brush down baseboards with a paint brush. You may wish to remove the switch plate covers and sprinkle some down in the hole (be sure to replace them). There's a start and you may have to do this over again as soon as you can secure some help. Go to social services or your local housing authority, apply for assistance. It was mentioned but ask local churches if they can donate money to secure housing and treatment. See if you can locate day care assistance and find employment so you have some funds to help you.

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Posted 11 months ago
Thu Jul 5 2012 17:55:44
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Thank you. I have essentially done most of this. I am so overwhelmed. Our apt. is large, I have to travel up and down and up and down, with a dysfunctional toddler following me and getting into everything. I can't even breathe or sit down for a minute. I am scared to start sleeping in my bed again because I know the first night I do they will maliciously attack us! I am about to go sprinkle some DE right now in cracks and crevices near and around our bed. I hope I do it correctly, I won't use alot.

Should I take down ALL the duct tape that I used to seal up the seams in the wall next to our bed? I know they are in there. But thank you for your advice.
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Posted 11 months ago
Thu Jul 5 2012 20:37:28
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[b]PLEASE, SOMEONE PLEASE ANSWER THIS Q AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. I USED SOME DE AROUND MY BED AND UNDER THE BED, ETC.

I KNOW IT'S HARMFUL IF INHALED BUT WHAT IF THE BUGS CRAWL THROUGH AND LIVE, ONLY TO BITE AND EAT FROM MY TODDLER SON.. THEY HAVE THE DE ON THEM SO WILL THIS BE DANGEROUS FOR HIM?????? IS TOUCHING THE DE DANGEROUS OR JUST INHALING IT??
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I don't know a ton about DE but I want you to know that I felt this exact same way when I thought I might have bed bugs and I just felt like I needed to say something. I also live in an apartment with a large family. (my mom and four younger siblings). We do not have money. No one cares except for me so if we find them, I will be taking full responsibility. I sympathized with you because when we had lice, we had lice for almost a year...it was terrible. We ended up just tossing the couch it was so bad!!! When I found out I might have bed bugs, I just broke down completely, could not stop sobbing, couldn't eat or sleep, because I had no idea how we could possibly handle this. It is so hard to feel like you need to be responsible for everyone in a household. I am still freaking out but I have controlled myself a bit because I know that there's nothing I can do and I just bought a few traps and am looking for signs. I have decided that I will just have to take out a loan if we have them to pay for the extermination fees. I will be paying it off for years to come but it has to be done. I've accepted it. Is taking out a loan a possibility for you? or maybe even moving out with your son? There has to be some way. Don't give up. I'm not religious but I always remind myself of the quote "this too shall pass".....you will get through this. You will not have bed bugs forever. I don't think anyone has had bed bugs forever! I'm sorry if this post isn't of much help but I just want you to know that someone is thinking of you and someone somewhat understands.
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I think leave the duct tape. I don't know what kind of DE you have, but I don't think there is a risk to a human by the DE from the bedbugs after they crawl through it.

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ickickick - 1 day ago »
. I am bawling my eyes out right now. I can't stop crying. I am a wreck. I have been having these dreams where I just resort to suicide because of this mess, and I am thinking about it daily too. *No, seeing a dr. is not possible for me right now. For ANY reason. Let's not talk about that.

First, if you are having suicidal thoughts, then you must seek professional help to deal with this.

Please read this post carefully.

There are services available to people without money or health insurance. There are even hotlines. But you must address that kind of depression and anxiety.

If you feel like you might harm yourself, please do seek help. You can go to an emergency room if nothing else. There are resources at the link above which may help.

Some of your questions about DE may be answered here. We don't know what kind of DE you used, but if you used a kind labeled "food safe" or for indoor pest control, then my understanding is the main concern is the lungs. You should take care to remove it safely (for example, a full respirator mask is recommended before you apply or vacuum it up). It may also cause skin reactions -- drying, at minimum-- so you should keep that in mind.

I am not an expert, but you might want to carefully remove it from
most areas-- my understanding is it should only be lightly applied in cracks and crevices where it won't be kicked up, touched, or inhaled.

DE sold for pools is more dangerous so hopefully this is not what you have.

Finally, you may live somewhere where the law says your landlord has to treat for bed bugs. In NYC, for example, he could not just use a fogger.

Local tenants rights groups can often give good advice about your rights. Google might help you find one.

It's the policy of the site to close threads where people threaten to harm themselves, and to direct them to the suicide resources linked above. Although I want a bit beyond this in my post above since it sounds like more information about DE may allay your anxiety, I am now going to close this thread, but you should feel free to start a new thread to continue the discussion about bed bugs.