On the brink of disaster(6 posts)
I am loosing it, I really think I am loosing my mind because of these bugs. I know there are many people out there suffering just as my family, and worse even... that just doesn't seem to pose much consolation at the moment. I haven't had very much sleep at all since November when this nightmare began, and it doesn't seem to be looking too good in the near future either. I have bags under my eyes so bad that I could literally store stuff in them, the gray hair is really coming in in droves at this point, and I look ten years older than I did several months ago. I am irratable beyond belief, and the fact that I have severe back problems and have no choice but to "sleep" on the floor at this point definatly doesn't help the situation any. What I desire at this point is a nice clean soft bed in a bug free enviornment for several hours of sleep. I really don't think it would work anyway considering I dream about these things every time I close my eyes! I broke down into tears several times today, and even my cat runs in and rubs my head and pushes her face up against mine lovin on me to make me stop crying. Thats a shame when a cat rubs your head, but she does...I couldn't believe it at first either! My head hurts, my body hurts, and I just don't know how much more of this I can take. I wonder how many people suffer from Post Tramatic Stress Disorder brought on by these things....I wonder if I will ever be normal again!
CB, So sorry you're here.We all know how you're feeling!These bugs are the devil incarnate alright.Are you getting treatment from a pco? I have a bad back also,moving furniture and carting around heavy bags of laundry doesn't help.I,so far,have refused to get rid of furniture,since that doesn't get rid of the problem,imo.If I did wind up sleeping on the floor,I'd probably end up in the hospital. I hope at least you're getting treated by pco,then there's light at the end of the tunnel.Use the FAQ's on this site to help you sort it out,if you have questions,just ask.BTW, my animals (2 cats,3 dogs) are very comforting to me ,too.Good luck and if you need anything ,just ask.
CB, I forgot to mention that there is and will be life afterbb's,don't worry.It takes some longer to return to normal than others,but it will happen!
>I wonder how many people suffer from Post Tramatic Stress Disorder brought on by these things....
CB - you are not the first to wonder this. It is absolutely clear to me that this situation can be traumatizing and can produce all the symptoms of PTSD and I would bet my bug-free bed that a good psychiatrist or mental health professional would diagnose same.
In the meantime, keep researching and working at it. For most people, it gets better - and they stop having so many buggy bad dreams! (oh, and the cat thing? I've been there - cats and dogs are good at that, they know when you're hurting and they care... people do too... )
Thanks for the reponses everybody. I know that the Cincinnati area (where I am) is crawling with these things! We are being treated every two weeks by a pco with our fourth treatment being scheduled for tomorrow. The thing that concerns me about this company my complex is using is that way back in November they did inspections of all units looking for these things and didn't find any in other apts except for one. The originally infested unit (next door to mine) and the one directly above it. We had them though all along, and even though we are getting treatment, because I found the bug to prove it, they still are saying that we don't have live activity even though I just found another bug crawling on my ceiling alive and well yesterday! I guess I don't have much faith in this whole process beings that they have yet to locate a harborage of these things and haven't reinspected other units surrounding mine. I have contacted an atty on the matter and his advice is to first go through the better business bureau and try to get some action taken there, and if all else fails to have him send a demand letter and attempt to get compensation for our belongings. Thing is, we can't afford to hire an atty or do anything else for that matter. I assume that things will eventually get better its just that I can't imagine at this point not being paranoid that these things will return especially considering the amount of people who have them and don't even realize it for whatever reason, or can't afford to treat. Take my sister in law for example...she has had these things for an eternity it seems, with 6 kids ages 5 to newborn, she can't afford to treat, and beings that she just had her home foreclosed on and was forced to move into a two bedroom apt, I know sure and well she took them with her even though she left some stuff behind. She is not the type to follow protocol or anything else anyway, but with knowledge of situations like that, it makes erradication of these beasts seem only a dream.
completely bugged I am so sorry! Soak up the cat love and trust that EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY. everyTHING.
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