My stress level is a 10! I'm terrified of sleeping alone tonight!(11 posts)
My boyfriend is usually here with me which is a huge comfort, but he's got his son over at his house tonight so he can't come over. This will be my first night alone, in my isolated bed with dead bugs all stuck to the sticky strips under the cinder blocks. I'm freaking out! I found 2 live ones yesterday and an egg. They are coming out with a vengeance. I don't know how people do this alone! I actually went to the doctor today to get something to calm me down so I can sleep but I'm still a wreck! I feel like I am aging a year every day of this nightmare. I would love to just cry but I'm too stressed to do even that.
Any advice to calm me would be appreciated.
I'm SO SORRY that your going thru this! Be glad you can take something to relax you - I'm pregnant and cant! Stay up late - take whatever pill the doctor gave you and just think of other things when you climb into bed. I know EXACTLY how you feel (hense the reason I'm still awake right now!)
You have to calm yourself down - try to relax and calm down! I always try to think "Things could be worse"... but I know it doesnt always help!
If your house being treated? Dead bug bugs is a GOOD SIGN and an isolated bed even better!
They try to get to you, get stuck, and die. It is a good thing to be isolated.
Laugh at their death throes. Mock their dying asses, you will feel better.
Don't give up and don't go crazy. They are not worth having a stroke over (I remember lying in bed thinking I might actually be having a stroke). If they are not in your bed, you're going to be ok. Poison is a good thing. You have support and understanding right here. And there are worse things that can happen to a person, but this indeed, is up there. You'll be ok. Can you take a nice long hot bath? It's usually a safe place and relaxing. I can remember forcing myself after having fallen asleep in the tub night after night, to get out and go to bed. It's 45 minutes or more of respite.
WOW hoo2677, nice hot bath does sound good. If it weren't for the waking later to the skin of a raisin or prune, I'd run and seek refuge there...
And Grindstone99 - you're not REALLY all alone - there are MANY of us in this with you. Hang in there - you have to make that choice that you will come down on the winning side of this. These things are stressful but you can't let it defeat you to the break point.
I can only tell you what worked for me:
1. No reading the posts here for at least three hours before bed. Thinking about bed bugs gave me the creepy crawlies, and as a result, if a cat hair drifted across my skin, I'd sit up, turn on the lights, and search for the phantom bug. Other people can do it, but I couldn't until I'd been bed bug free for months.
2. Because I'm a story-junkie, I had to distract myself by sucking myself so into a book, television program, or a movie that I was practically falling asleep already before I moved to the bed that I was afraid of. I'd sit in the living room on the couch watching soothing television in the dark (channels like Discovery or History or anything else with a lot of programs with "soothing narrator voice" tend to work well for me for this.) until I was really, really sleepy, and then go drop into bed so tired I didn't have time to think about the bugs before I drifted off to sleep. Ditto with a book, except in low light and reading until my eyelids drooped. If I was deeply enough engrossed in the story of what I was reading or listening to, I could focus on that instead of fear of the bugs.
Hope that helps.
I was doing basically the same thing, but sometimes I did fall asleep watching tv, and woke with bites, that ruined tv watching. We now sit at the kitchen table at night to watch tv and i've now taken to falling asleep sitting up in a kitchen chair..................(but this hasn't changed my way of life a bit, eh?) (sarcasm)
Thanks so much everyone for taking the time to write. I love the support and as sick as it sounds, find comfort in knowing I'm not the only one going through this! I had a decent sleep, I'm sure it will get better every day.
I would take a low dose of melatonin and fall asleep reading a fun novel in low light. Like buggyinsocal, I needed the combination of tired and distracted.
Are you getting good help? If so, the bed bugs should be dying daily.
Nobugsonme, yes I'm getting help. I have signs all over the house so others follow protocol, my bf think I'm nuts. They're not getting in my bed so that's a huge plus. My biggest fear is spreading them to the rest of the house.
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