Bedbugs are making me crazy!!!!!!!(5 posts)
I have been on this site many times since I noticed that I got bedbugs a week ago - I'm obsessed and I'm terrified at the same time. I have since vacated my apartment by going back to sleep at my parent's place - I know, some of you are already shaking your head and thinking that I should've stayed at my own apartment. But the truth is: I simply CAN'T sleep at my own apt. I am terrified! I get jumpy just be being in the apartment. And while I was waiting for the exterminator to come last Thursday, I had so much anxiety. I couldn't sit still anymore. I wake up in the middle of the night at my parent's house, checking the mattress and chairs there.
I don't know what to do. Right now, I'm afraid to go into my apartment. I feel like I don't live there anymore. The bed bugs have invaded my apartment and they have won! They have driven me out!! I'm thinking of breaking my lease, but I haven't really read anywhere here that people are doing that....is anyone out there trying to break their lease?
And the scariest thing! I have bites show up 2 days after I started sleeping at home again...and I have noticed more bites since. I feel like now my parent's house have bedbugs! But no one there believes me, because I'm the only one who has the bites. There are 5 other people who lives at my parent's 3 bedroom apt and no one has bites except for me? Does that mean that my parent's place have bedbugs, too? or are my bites just showing up late?
I hate the fact that I have no idea where my bedbug came from - hotel (I travel a lot for work) or was it already in my apt? This is such a nightmare!!! I have threw away so much stuff...and still! I'm afraid that they will return. That's why, I just want to break my lease - how am I ever going to be able to sleep in my apt again???!!!
People have tried to break their lease and, yes, some have succeeded. There was someone on the bedbugger yahoo group whose landlord refused and she ended up moving with nothing. Not "almost nothing," really nothing. Others negotiate with their landlords. A lot of people move successfully. And then, a lot don't.
You don't have to lose control of this situation. You can try to get some perspective and make a careful plan to move after your infestation is controlled. I do understand how this is very hard, but it is probably wiser to fight this fight now, until it's over, than to have to fight it again in a new place. I do hope you have not brought them with you to your parents' house. It is quite possible to have delayed bite reactions. In any case, I hope you are reading the FAQs on how to protect yourself and others, how to deal with your clothes.
It seems very, very hard now, but a lot of us manage and with some hard work and a little luck, you can too. One small step at a time. It is imperative to continue the PCO treatments, for everyone's sake.
Some people have had good experiences talking things over with a good therapist. There are solutions. They are not perfect, but you are not alone and you can make it. I hope you start to feel better soon. Please read the information in the FAQs; they will help.
I recognize so much of what you are going through. It is hard for you to know now, but there are phases of this whole bedbug thing and you are in one of the worst--the beginning. You feel powerless and anxious--look what has happened to you! If you think of this as trauma, not anxiety, it might make you feel more powerful. You have been traumatized, severely. You were (1) attacked, (2) in your bed, (3) when you were sleeping, (4) by an insect (5) that sucked your blood (6) and left you itching and with skin reactions. War has broken out in your apartment. It's you against the bedbugs. The bedbugs made the peremptory attack -- at night, no less -- and you retreated briefly. But now you are going to arm yourself with knowledge, ziploc bags, vaseline on the bedlegs, a mattress cover, vacuuming, and most of all a savvy pest control operator. You will win.
From your lips to God's ears, parakeets!!! I too am at the beginning. The PCO took some samples with him today to view under the microscope for identification. He did a quick look-see, because we were both pressed for time, and agreed with us that there is no evidence of bed bugs at this time. We have agreed to meet again after he has had a chance to identifiy the bugs he took today. As I wrote in another feed, he was recently in Chicago on for a seminar on these critters and is trustworthy, fair and knowledgable. So being at the beginning, is beginning to feel like the war has begun. I only threw up once today...lol. My nerves and phyche are not as frazzled, or I am just simply exhausted by the amount of research and worrying I've been doing. I wish there were more success stories on here. I will certainly post mine, if I have one!!
People who persist with treatment are generally successful in fighting bed bugs.
Most people who are successful don't stick around the website. As much as we appreciate those who do, or those who come back to visit, we can understand why they want to move on.
Having heard hundreds and hundreds of stories, I can tell you you have a very good shot at fighting them.
Out of curiosity, what did you give the PCO to ID? Was it a nymph? An adult? Some feces?
I totally understand how you feel. But the best thing to do is follow our FAQ on choosing a PCO who knows bed bugs, and get prompt treatment. Right now it feels hopeless, but it isn't.
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